Well these past few weeks have probably been the toughest of my life.  My mother had been diagnosed with heart failure, which basically means it isn’t beating right and she is dying.  The tablets she is taking have not worked and are also making her ill.  The only resort left is to stop her heart and restart it in the hope that it will correct things.  Needless to say I am truly worried, though not as worried as mom is.  I am hoping that all will be well with her heart after this as we have had a rocky relationship and have only recently learnt how to tolerate each other.  I feel we have a lot of catching up to do and I don’t want to loose any time.

I haven;t been able to go and see her as much as I should have been either as I have had quite a bad chest and sinus infection for two weeks now and I don’t want to hit her immune system with anything else.  The doctors are saying that my immune system (which is weak anyway due to a condition called Gilbert’s Syndrome) is compromised due to the stress of recent events.  At this moment, despite double strength anti-biotics, I am laid up in bed with badly bleeding sinuses (yes, eww! I’m sorry and a headache like you wouldn’t believe.

My hubby is having to look after the kiddies, even though he is just out of hospital.  He has had an infection after and operation he had 8 weeks ago and was really badly for a while, though at the moment he is a lot better.  I have looked after him as much as I possibly could for the past few days and have taken full care of the kiddies despite being ill, but now I just can’t go on.  I’m beating myself up about it but my hubby is stubborn and has insisted I take to bed as I can’t look after anyone in this state.

As for swapping, I am still managing (which makes me wonder about some of the excuses people have, as I’m not a strong person by far, oops, did I say that!),  I have been only a few days late with one or two swaps while the hubby and mom were in hospital.  I am on top of things now though and even have some swaps out over a month in advance!  There is just one swap that has gone bad, one of my hubby’s, a coffee cuff swap.  He hasn’t been able to do it and I have no idea where to start.  I am going to give it a go as soon as I am better and he’ll just have to live with the bad rating.

In my ‘bed rest’ time I have added a swap and tutorial on paper dyeing using plants from the garden.  The swap can be found here on swapbot and the article is on my craft blog Kucachoo Crafts.

I’m also using the time to catch up with my emails and I’d like to take the chance to thank those people who have supported me with kind wishes and thoughts, those who have sent me random surprises and those who have been dear friend to me through this difficult time, you know who you are